best to worst

I'm falling in love to someone I know I can't have. Sakit noh?! Well thats life. You just have to suck it! lol. Minsan gusto ko na mura murahin si kupido. Sa dinami dami ng pesteng lalake sa mundo, why him?! Andyan naman si ano.. tsaka si ano.. pati din si ano... pero bakit siya?! bakit ngayon?! hindi noon?!

Nasa huli talaga ang pagsisisi. Ngayon ko lang na prove. Siguro, if I opened my heart to chances before akin na sana sya ngayon. Hindi na sana nagdurugo ang puso ko ngayon [ay syet!].. Ang saklap ng lovelife ko, first time ko ma inlove ng bonggang bongga, sabay hindi pa pwede. I wish I could just turn back the time and correct all my mistakes. Hindi ko nalang sana sya tinake for granted noon.

I'm in love with my friend. YES!! That's true. I'm in love with someone taken [taken daw sya sabi ng kumag!]. Habang papalapit ng papalapit ang araw ng aking pag uwi sa bayang sinilangan, lalong napapabilis ang tibok ng puso ko. Lalong tumitindi ang nerbyos at takot ko sa mga mangyayari. At lalo din dumadami ang mga tanong ko. Dami kong tanong sa isip ko, what if may girlfriend talaga sya at ipakilala sakin?! how would I react?! Anong sasabihin ko?! Kapag nagkita kami, would he hug me would I hug him or kiss him or whatever?! Will he still be the same person I used to know?! Will he change? if yes,why?! damn! I'm disturbed. Everynight before I close my eyes, I'm searching for answers. Reminiscing. And just cry myself to sleep. I want him, I love him, and I wanna be with him badly. I'm excited, I'm scared and I'm lonely.

He's arrogant, selfish, judgemental and yet I love him.
He's bossy, foolish and naughty and still I love him...

One thing I learned,, you have to deal with the worst before you get all the best..